Turn-down service

So I have officially turned down three jobs this year.  Two in my field and one from a dear friend.  I find it amazing in this economy that when I'm not even looking for jobs, I'm headhunted this often.  I just got another call from a random contractor in New Jersey who wanted me to do design work on a government project in North Little Rock.  He used my real name, therefore I'm confident that I don't know him and that I have absolutely no idea where he would get my name or cell number.  You would think I would be good at the turn-down service by now but nope.  Maybe it's because I don't like mints to be left on my pillow.  I prefer bacon.


My heart has been pulled in so many directions in the past 18 months but I have made a conscious decision to stay put. Why? Even I'm not entirely sure.  Maybe sheer stubbornness... once I commit to and believe in something, I'm in 100%.  Maybe it's my health... I still don't have answers, but at least I have doctors here that are willing to listen (and not just laugh at my list of symptoms that is longer than my grandmothers... and she's 98.).  It's not the job security... a snowstorm this winter could leave me paycheck-less!  Maybe it's the friends... I don't have many, but the ones I have are quality.  Maybe it's because my dog loves his backyard.

I think I am wired to constantly move but I'm actually resisting it now so I can attempt to build a life.  I have absolutely no idea what I want that life to look like, but I know it is something worth fighting for.

Both of Mr. Bill's blog readers are said to be infuriated.  Both of my blog readers probably think I'm an idiot.  The only thing I know for sure is that it is exhausting being this awesome all the time!